the countdown to a moment with my man

j-33 until french sausage, language and luscious lips will be upon me again.

flashback: saying goodbye at the airport. me crying like a baby, you stoic and strong...grab hold of my hand as you move through the snaking security line. you lift my hand ever so gently to your lips and kiss my sadness away...ringing the tears from my eyes and my heart--as your honey-gold eyes look at me with tenderness. an unexpected caress of love. merci beaucoup, mon doux.

blossom

the park is in bloom, like my heart--a blossoming forest of motion. six weeks away and my saturday morning universe has changed from barren and brown to flourishing and green. the overhanging branches elicit spontaneous bursts of thought, emotion, sensual satisfaction as the rebirth of nature in a concrete world reemerges around me. beautiful moment enshrined in my mind, giving birth to ecstatic feelings of love--for nature,time and man.

dog smile

today, a guide dog in training on the subway gave way to smile after sweet, effervescent smile. she came down to the brooklyn bound subway platform and spread her hind legs before laying down, slowly. she gently laid her head down upon her paws and paused. silently, still waiting for the train as i tapped my finger against the hardback book in my hands. looking up, sideways and sideways again, i see a woman in a clingy short dress with high heels and a silver sequin purse look down, smiling at she (the dog of peace and tranquility) lying upon the dirty concrete. i see a short man put his book down to smile at the dog from behind. his loosened tie, untucked shirt all suggest relaxation. but nothing circling around me is as tranquil as the yellow lab with the green vest waiting so patiently, ignoring all around her, and yet watching she--with her yellow coat and deep brown eyes, one imagines her brain flickering on and on again deciphering next steps.

and then the 4 train comes. and more people look down to see, feel, watch, be a part of this guide's peace. she smiles. i smile. we all smile.

percolating daydreams

what a beautiful feeling--creative inspiration. the flow of thoughts and ideas into action. the constant percolating of my mind brings endorphins bubbling up from the tip of my toes to the tip of my tongue. a gushing flow of prosperous visions, movement, hope. inspired day dreams of life, creatively free.

fragments

i'm off to my own private disneyland.

enjoy the little conversation with my imaginary you.

more to come...

the difference between today and yesterday

disappointment consumed me yesterday. but hope filters to the top today.

no shooting allowed

a sign for the south, found in the northwest: no shooting allowed. ducks beware. guns are on the prowl. pulled from beneath cozy beds, lifted from racks and raised high. signs posted to distract. cautionary tales of what not to do. but caution. guns come out when you're least aware. roam the creek freely if you dare. let's hope the hunters read.

away with the wind

i found your hair in my pocket. instantaneously. it made me think of you. the way i love to run my fingers through your hair. the way i love to touch you. be with you. pull on you. taste you and put my arms around you.

it flew away in the wind.

friends and wine

friends. friends. friends help me see the casual side of life. fun. easy. wine and wine and wine. days of sun and rain, food and sleep. a weekend of life and leisure. a welcome reminder of friends and family. the way to live and share and love.

real they were

i dreamt of your kisses. so real. so intense. so many. a flood of comfort.
you were with me. surrounded by a blanket of blue and gold.

new york magic

the tears were merely an act of goodbye. a song to my love...a closing act to this chapter of magic--new york magic. yes--new york gave us another moment. so beautiful, so serene. so full of emotion and life. together, episodes around the country, we found each other in new places. a new world. a stronger connection. wild heat.

we will find each other again--ever so soon. our next adventure awaits us. its call bellows softly, low. and grows louder with each ticking minute. time will point the compass and we will eagerly obey.

is today the day

is today the day our futures change. you seal the deal and remain.
is today the day our surity steps in. when you leave and we know you'll come back again.
is today the day our hands hold tight. over sea and continents with strength and might.
is today the day our lips collide. their soft caress carrying us through the tide.
is today the day our smiles unite. as strength and adventure fill our eyes.
today is the day. our fingers are crossed. your speech prepared. my kisses stand by.

sushi love

i love sushi.
what a delight to eat it tonight.
you smell like sushi. hot, so hot.
you smell like you. sexy, so sexy.
i think i want to eat you.
sushi love.

a magic wind down

laughter, a final farewell for an undefined amount of time.

a weekend of rest, relaxation, food and adventure...coney island adventure.

russian stroganoff, radio and mtv. rain, sand and water with camera in tow

movies and champagne, insane laughter again and again

makes for another magical wind down

to a wonderful year. come back quickly, mon cher.

done

and here's the result...

color of change

the time has come for change. bored with orange hair, i venture out today to enliven my head and my spirit with something new--color. may the hair gods be with me as i explore the possibilities of the color wheel. please no tears, only joy. let the adventure begin...

reminders of time

the last two days i've been reminded of a wonderful time. a moment in space when all met cohesively in the mysterious streets of paris--singing avenues, bustling bodies, swaying trees--luscious lips. while others met in the streets of cannes to celebrate...

coming together for a city adventure--europe, north america--defining months at a time. laughter, joy, sadness, togetherness. hand in hand as exploration of the known and unknown continued. continued more. until streets were filled with laughter, tears, honking of horns in a new concrete universe. a universe with metallic heads

welcome friends

friends...girl friends, boy friends,
close friends, distant friends...friends
i have some. what fun. how refreshing.

a meeting worth having

jasmin, orange blossom,
peppermint, vanilla.
i welcome you.

finally, answers.
what relief--knowing,
not guessing more. safe
and sure. it's been so long.
now work your magic,
tranform me back to me.

speeding out of control

the dial speeds round and round,
faster time spins away. out of control,
out of my hands, my mind,
a body refusing to defy gravity,
skin denying me youth. oh tragedy,
what sadness, worry this brings.
searching, seeking the glow of only nine months ago--
the light, rested, relaxed me, i beg for its return.
come back please.

today's inspiration

madonna, madonna, madonna...